"You cannot choose your destiny. The destiny choose you." --Heroes TV Show
This is not another movie review of Al-Gore's documentary film. I can guarantee you that.
This is about me, and my life. Frankly I'm not really comfortable to convey what actually happened in my life at the moment. But this is what my weblog is all about, isn't it?! I realize that I'm not a celebrity or any other famous person in the world, but hopefully this weblog will be my own on-line biography which I can always re-read in the future.
Back to the topic, well yeah, my nuclear family has a financial difficulty at the moment. It's really sad, it is. I can't provide you the detail information about what, why, and how. All can tell you is what I feel nowadays.
I didn't live in wealthiness in the past, FYI, however I thank God I've been having enough food up till now, go to uni by driving a car, and type a new blog posting on a good computer equipped with fast internet connection.
Human can never get enough, don't you agree?
Life is like a wheel, there are ups and downs. And sadly my life wheel is falling down. I'm not sure when it will roll up again, thus it makes me very insecure. I've never been so depressed until now. Sometimes I blame myself for choosing a long-time-to-go-and-require-a-lot-of-money major at the uni. What a stupid decision. I could've choose any other major which less expensive and less length of study so that I could seek for a job earlier.
It's TOO late. I really don't know what will happen tomorrow. I'm scared to death if someday I have to face that I'll need to leave my med-school due to financial problems. What am I gonna do if that day comes? I cannot think any of it no more.
Mom told me not to tell Andrew about this matter so that he doesn't have to think about it and distract his study. I'm sorry mom (if he happens to read this). And for you, my bro, spirit is meant to be kept alive! I'm sure there's a way, even though I don't know what it is at the moment.
On this semester, I ought to buy some expensive textbooks. Since I don't want to give more pressure to my mom, regrettably I need to sell my gold ring (on the left side) given by relatives. *This picture is not intended to show off, it's merely to keep the memories alive* On the right side, it's a diamond ring given from my uncle recently. Hopefully I don't have to sell it too.
I've closed down my credit cards to prevent me from accidental shopping. I want to earn some money, but what can I do? Any suggestion? Part-time working is not available due to my schedule. I try to make some writings to be sent.
I'm getting used to take public transportation, so that when my car is about to sale, I don't have to mess my mom to drive me school.
That's what I called an inconvenient truth of my life.